Chapter 9: The End of 2012

Finally, today was the last day of 2012, kinda sad because I am getting old with every ended of the years. =( Since everyone is posting on social spaces, how can I miss the trend hahaha...

Flashback the year of 2012, I have to say that I am quite proud of myself for step out from my safety box and challenging myself.

Challenge no 1: Study Aboard to U.K.

Get to know this awesome people in U.K, some of them have helped me a lot..I have avoided some problems when I first move to here with their help. All of us are far away from home, so an unseen relations have pull us get together and depends on each others. With them, my U.K. life is much more easier and happy. I gonna miss them when I go back to Malaysia. Before I came here, I have no the guts and also confused of my choice. But, I told myself: Just do it, and no regrets. =)

Challenge No 2: Summer Part Time in Olympic Games

I am glad that I have made my choice and going to London for my summer part time job all by alone. Why? Because, first, its Olympic...second is money lol =) Luckily I been there, if not I will be regret in my all life. Just go and don't think so much. Thinking n worries so much is killing you. I miss my team and fellows so much. I can see the cooperation and the friendships from them. They willing to help and "protect" each others from being bully by the other departments hahaha!!*touch*

These is the 2 biggest and bravest decision I ever made in 2012. Good try and will continue to challenge and upgrade myself in 2013. The feelings of getting old is quite scary by the way. =( Anyway wish all my loves stay happy and healthy forever. I am greed, I want healthy, love and wealth! ;) Gonna try it hard..

Happy 2013 New Years peeps!!xD

Chapter 8: Victory from Boxing Day

Today, I am going to share some of my victory from the boxing day..xoxo I think the only thing that I gonna miss a lot of U.K. is the shopping malls here. Is hard to get the cheap and lovely outfits which suit my stylish in Malaysia. So, I bought a lot of lovely tops, dresses, bag and accessories here. =) Overall, I am very happy and satisfied with what i have bought last day.

Leather Jacket from Forever 21, Lattice Blouse from New Looks, Jeans from Padini

 Dress from Forever 21, River Island Handbag

Transparent Singlet from Forever 21, Shorts from Cotton On

Colorful dress from Forever 21, High heels in nude color from New Looks

P/s: Just realize how much my loyalty and love towards Forever 21!!LOL

Chapter 7: Merry Christmas

Hohoho!!Merry X'mas!! This year, I be my own Santa Maya. xoxo ^^The day before and after X'mas, I went to SHOPPING and i am really love the way when I was shopping. Pity??ahaha..No lover to spent X'mas together and then shopping is a good choice what. The mega sale in U.K. is totally different with Malaysia. I can't believe it could be that cheap since some of them is branded. When I saw something, got a sound whisper in my mind and convince me,hmmm..mum maybe looks good with this or this maybe suit to who..blah blah blah...Lets see my babies below...hehe.. 

After that, I managed to having a home made hot pot in the hostel. What I can said is I am too satisfied with the dinner!!I wanna thanks to my Taiwan friend who made the tiramisu for us here. I love dessert and chocolate so much!!LOL...

Left: Herbal Hot Pot Right: Tomyam Hot Pot

So this is how I spent my Christmas in U.K. Different places got the different celebrations. 

Merry Christmas Everyone!! <3

Chapter 6: I am a Waitress Now

Home made汤圆

Processing..

After done some shopping in the morning,I went to my friends's place to made some "汤圆" and eat. Since everyone post the "汤圆" photo on facebook and instagram, so here I am..xoxo.. The tastes of the 汤圆 is not bad but I still miss the 汤圆 of my mum previously...But it is better than nothing isn't? lol... After finish eating and then we girls started to do the common activity that every girl will do most of the time, gossip. =) And no longer after this, my friend received a call from her friends who finding hard for people to work for him that day. Luckily I am there, so i take the offer and went to work. 

The working place is located in the casino and my job role as a waitress. The environment is kinda busy but I love it very much because I got the chance to meet new people, friends and try something new. 

Uniform

The uniform kinda like malay kebaya and I am hard to wider my every single steps. But my colleague said it looks nice on me =) 

Short blog today cause I am really exhausted after walking the whole day. Wondering why? Stay tune for my next blog =) Goodnight peep!

Chapter 5: From Teenage Girl to Lady

Dear M.B ❤,

Mom let the little girl walk by herself. To learn to growth, falling down and hurt yourself cannot be avoid sometimes. Once you know the pain, lesson learnt and you got to get up and try all overall again. When we are still a baby, parents are always protect us against from being hurt. They block all the bad side for me and make me think that the world is simple and beautiful. Now, I am far away from my sweet home and getting knew about the realistic side of the society, of the world, especially when I doing some part times. In conclude, working does not easy as always. I am fully respect of my dad. Why he can do the same job for decades? Don't he feel bored?It is not easy to support the whole families for so many years..The relationship with the employer, boss, clients,sales...cannot blow up with all of these when he in moody....I payed fully respect and loves to him ❤❤
For me, this is insane and annoying. But after i started to get involved with working, I felt shame of myself. Why I can be so fake? double side faces girl? But then I found that, come on!! Sometimes we have to change to different "channels" with different people we met in life. It can be a kind of respect to them because I can't always put my mood or feels on my face infront of them. Maybe they will affected by my unfriendly face (*p/s: seriously I look fierce when smile off ;( ) and our relationship become worst. So this is another lesson I learnt in the process of growth, sometimes we can't be too willful in manage relationship. Do not ever feel shame of yourself when you are doing things that reverse with your heart, but be proud of it because this means you are growing to be mature. Always remember that families and friends is there for you whenever you need them. When you feel sad and tired, just pick up your cell phone, watapps, line or whatever that takes you get them, throw out all the rubbish to them, I bet they are willing to lend you pairs of ear, and then..I feel recharge and fresh again. That is why I said, friendship..opps...and families is the vitamin of life. (; Previously, I always heard people saying: Life is short and you must enjoy it..Now, I am totally agreed and understand its meaning. Yes, life is really short, I can't predict how many years I can be keep on living, maybe 100 years old and maybe I might dying tomorrow. So my quote is, do not be regret. Don't care about the prediction of 2012, takes everyday as the end of the world. Honestly, I am grateful with what I have now. There are so many people out there was unlucky. If got the chance, I hope to involved in charity and do some contribution. (; Physical labor is much more meaningful to me rather than just dropping few bucks into the charity donation boxes. Back to the topic today, I can't always hiding behind and be a mummy little girl. Do not give up before you try, the difficult path will leads to the beautiful scenery and good things is waiting for you at the end. So, neither like or dislike, always believe on it. I will try my best in everything and always able to learn in new things. When facing hardest moments, cover my head with blanket and cry out loudly and sleep, the next day will be another branded new days for me. This is how i handle my sadness everytimes and it works on me..feel much better after this. ;-D I should not struggles with those unimportant and pointless stuff in my life...so this is me..sleep tight and hope can have a sweet sweet dream tonight.    

 

P.s: M.B=maya blog, lolx!! Before get a nice cute name for my blog, M>B is here. (;

Don't be afraid and always have a try with no regret.

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Chapter 4: 12.12.12 ❤

I smelled Christmas in this environment. Scottish burger, German sausage, caroling, beers, chocolate...and all about CHRISTMAS!!   

❤ 12.12.12 ❤ 

Beer is a must during winter.

Hohoho!!Santa Clause is coming to town!! 

Today gonna make a short post for my dear blog, just in case it too lonely. So apparently this is the last time for the next 89 years that we will have 12.12.12 this special date. I don't think i will be live that longer, what i meant is, 110 years old?? No wayy!! December is all about Christmas. So do u guys have a plan for this special month?? I am gonna stay at Birmingham  for this Christmas but if there is any extempore plan, I might do something unplanned. Who knows? Sometimes we should do things we want but not blindly follow others. So lets go crazy!!(; Life is short. I am still cannot believe 2012 is gonna end soon. How sad, time flies, 2012..one of my big year of life. Too much things happened in the whole years, and all these make me become stronger and mature. Just like, what doesn't kill you makes you stronger lolxx. When I am alone, it doesn't mean I am lonely and when I smile doesn't mean I am happy. Do not ever judge anything with the cover, appreciated everything even though it just a little small thing, sad or happy, it comes with reasons. Learn for the lesson. Life will be great as you want isn't it? =D Sincerely, i would like to thanks to the people i met, you guys lecture me and if not because of you, I don't think i got the guts to oversea by myself and wouldn't able to open my eye and wider my sight in this beautiful country. With your support, I gain a lot in 2012. And my beloved family, I miss n love you so much! Prepare myself for the challenge of 2013. Everything please go smooth to me hehe..Good night and sleep tight!!      

Quote of the day: The field u spent the most time, that's the place u gain success.     

❤ 12.12.12 ❤ 

第四章：朋友

2008

 2010

2011

2011

**We knew this day will come, but how it will come so soon?

今晚，想写篇“朋友"的博客。人在不同的人生阶段，遇见不同的人。无论他们曾经在你记忆里留下多难忘的痕迹，或是在你人生中占了重要的一席之地，但天下是没不散的酒席。记忆虽会随着时间而变得模糊，但朋友带给我的喜怒哀乐倍感珍惜，也会一直把她们放进心里。我很庆幸，打从小学开始，我身边都有许多非常非常要好的朋友。上了中学，大学，依然很庆幸我还能拥有，还能认识那么多的好朋友。没有她们，我的生活应该会很无趣吧！看着一张张的照片，从一开始的嫩样，到现在的近照，发现大伙儿都变了许多。那些年，我们都曾经嫩过嘛！^^小时候希望快点长大，现在不想了。。随着年龄的增加，发现越难毫无顾忌，放肆地开怀大笑了。虽然不能随心所欲，但是我都会尽量在该开心时开心，难过时大哭一场就没事了。我的朋友们都是我的开心果，是上天派来当我人生的润滑剂。好吧，刚认识她们时，是有看对方不爽的时候啦！但这样才有火花的擦出嘛！^^真心地希望我们能当一辈子的同窗，室友，队友，姐妹，好朋友！也真心地希望我们的友谊直到永远。不知怎的，我不想时间过得那么快。。不喜欢现实夺走我的笑容，讨厌无力感，讨厌阿谀奉承的生活。眼看2012就快结束了，我也即将毕业了，又要开始踏上另一个阶段了。我喜欢也珍惜我人生中好的坏的，没有坏的，也就不能把我磨练变得坚强。曾听过一句很有意思的话，当你对某件事情感到害怕，你越应该去做。没错，当你逼自己完成了让你感到害怕的事后，回头想想，原来也不过如此。所以我喜欢挑战，因为害怕不敢尝试那不就只能在原地停留了？我畏高，不过真的想试试笨猪跳还有跳伞什么的。不过我应该会拉几个朋友陪我一起，有福当然要同享咯！^^本人有几个死党，取了个名叫”久“帮。与她们的每一个人都有着不同的故事。当初也不知道怎么地就都凑在一起了。十七八岁的天空，有了她们而无忧无虑。爱死她们了！期待下一次的聚会。就算变成白发斑斑驼背的老阿嫲，还是要出来大疯大颠地忆说当年事。我去过最最最精彩最好玩的旅程是，我二十一年岁月里的人生。

 毕

Chapter 3 React Manner

Hi Blog, I knew I been while never visit and update you, alright, a long long while i knew.
But, here I came again because I have to gave a vent to my feel. Like the title posted, how do people reacts or response when they see something or feels something that make what they feels.

Personally, I admit that I am a stubborn girl and always follow what I want to do. Maybe I am too straight in some ways, but I do consider the consequence before I response. Some times, it is so tired to think so much with what you gonna do right?

Just like, what I going to say, the listener will feel happy with that? Or will they blah blah blah.. So, I end up with I will only be myself when they are really my best and the closest friend of mine, and when I ever had a bad impression on someone with the first sight on them, I knew I will never want to get well with them. Just because I don't like them. 

For an example, react manner as the chapter of today has a reason. This evening, I did a stupid thing(I knew) and the people i not fancy much saying something that sounds stupid to me. I feel kinda awkward but more anger. An invisible inner sound inside my heart raving: what the hell..it is non of your business and don't came and screw up the thing ok? And don't always react like you are the king and we people have to pleasure you. 

I do not have dual personality just because my face is smiling and joking with the person after all. We still have to see each other for months so, instead of create an enemy, why not live with peace and avoid a war? Although I hate to pretend likes I like you so much. But, mum or master or anyone else please teach me how to handle this kind of problem? 

Hmmm, the growing process makes me understand and learnt that life is not easy as I thought when I am a child. The more older of ages I gained, the more lesson I learnt bout life and some of them was cruel and I have to pay for the prices. It's not like I can unfriend with you because you step on my feet or you bite my fingers. 

People can feels I am so cool and unfriendly when I put on my anti-social face without smiling. Self-protection built up when I knew they cant's be my friend or the one who can walk into my life. And because 12 hours putting a big smiling face is so tired and it makes my face stiff. I try my best to be very friendly and kind to of of the people I met k? I will try so even is hard for me lolxx..

I love to live in my world and enjoy my life. People come and go in my life, so I shouldn't waste my time to bother so much if there is no solutions for it. Sun still rising everyday and life still going, so living without regrets. P/s: Talk so much just to complaining today. Promise will try to talk more happy stories in the next chapter. Sorry for complaint just because I have no one to talk through right now, this moment. Felt much better after thrown out so much rubbish here, unhappy mood removed.*big truly smile* (;

Christmas is around the corner. Nikita is back, Salvatore brothers is back, happy for these.
So feast your eyes on my next chapter kay? Good night and sweet sweet dream for me. (;

  

Chapter 2: No Topic,Just Feelings..

Within 24 hours, here I am again.=(

Dear blog,

Just saw something that makes me felt kinda upset...

The social technology nowadays was too high tech and have it's advantages and disadvantages...

I really don't like people post somethings or scolding some one or whatever that will makes people feel unhappy with their post.It's suck =( 

I am kinda, no is super sensitive with the others' perspective on me..

Maybe what I did have hurt someone but I will still do the same ways if the things happen again.

Maybe I am just too self-protect and only my dearest close friends are able to walk into my heart. It's so hard to find some one that same "channel" with you, laugh together,talk nonsense together , concern on you and will always there when you need them. all these makes me willing to gave my heart for them. My besties were awesome and I heart you all so much!!*shy*

P/S: Dear some one, if I hurts you, I do apologize and I didn't meant it. Day by day you will forget bout me,so just study hard and play hard everyday k? Wish you have a colorful future =)

Even though I care how others look at me but I will still walk my path and live my life with my way. I will never stop for anyone or anything and I absolutely understand what I need for myself...

I wanna like my idol, Maggie Q who cool, independent and so "you yeng" all the time..*addicted with Nikita series recently* =)

Fuuhh,after talk so much and I felt better now..Times to flighting again...Another 96 days, I am no longer a student anymore Hahaha!!I got so many plans and trips to do next year!!Arhh party rock!!♥ ♥ 

Oppa 2013 style..!!

Chapter 1 : Myself

Hi ! Yeah this is me =) 

A girl who trying to blogging for her ever first time.

Hopes I can keep continue to blogging because I am such as lazy girl hahaha! 

Hmmm what to write about? Well let me introduce myself. 

As you see, the photo above shown how my looks like! 

Blahh~ Not a pretty girl likes other pretty blogger and I admit it =) 

  Lets talk about what takes me to start blogging??

Answer: Because I found that lots of my friends have the same habit which is blogging.

Hahha..therefore, due to fulfill my spying DNA..Here am I !!

The second reason is because I am always and always starving at this time,this moment!!

So I am try to pull the starving feels to another thing!!

Hahahaha  xD

Yes!! I ♥  to eat so so much!!♥ x10000

Food!!Especially hot and spicy!!

(p.s.start missing the food in my hometown MAlacca again ='{ )

I have to stop thinking food again at this moment!!

Is okiee maya..After 3 months you can eat as much as you can and even till your tummy become tyre !!=)*promise to myself*

Gosh~Wondering is that night time is the times for me to start emo??

Hmmm...I miss my baba..mama..my brother..my two little sisters Ah Mei and Mimi ..

and  ni..ta..ni men..ta men..

How I wish I can always stay at my teenager life...

My teenage life was awesome..best..and most happier *ignore my academic study* I would ever had!! 

A teenager girl changes to a lady or woman...

yao ru fen!You must

Trying to life hard..play hard and study hard...

Okiee??

Orh yar!!Talk so much but haven tell you my name hehee...

my name is yao ru fen....and most of my friends in U.K.dint know my chinese name..

They used to call me maya =)

But I think when I get back to Malaysia..Will say bye bye to "maya"

hahahaahah...no because....

Ok lar because my friends comment that my name like a malay name><

So,need a better name haha!!

oppss!It's 10.30pm!!

Well, I should get in to my bed..morning class waiting for me ishh =(

Music will be on till morning again because I can't sleep without music...

So in case to prevent my best friend "insomnia"  come to knock my head..I should...

Tonight going to listen one fm's show called"wan dou nei" and it was damn funny =)

I can do it better than the host !!My friends can help me to prove for those who not believe!!

Hahahahahah

Goodnite and sleep tight !!